Tuesday, May 25, 2010

early poems and drawings by Lene


ISLAND OF MY HEART

ISLAND OF MY HEART
HOW I LONG TO SEE YOU AGAIN
THE MEMORIES OF YOUR BEAUTIFUL COLORS IN SUNSHINE
PLAY IN MY MIND.

ISLAND EARTH WHERE I WAS BORN MY ROOTS ARE STILL THERE!
I HAVE JOURNEY FAR AWAY FROM YOU ALMOST 30 YEARS NOW
HEART AND SOUL MISSES YOU SO.

ISLAND, RICH IN HISTORY AND CULTURE, AND STILL REMAIN
AFTER ALL YOU UNDER GONE AND SUSTAIN.
MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS ARE STILL WITHIN YOU
MAKING SURE YOU SURVIVE ALL YOU HAVE TO GO THROUGH.

ISLAND, COUNTRY WHERE I REALLY BELONG AND WANT TO BE FREE!
IN MY HEART TILL THE DAY I CSME BACK ALL YOUR LOVING
MEMORIES WILL REMAIN IN MY HEART AS I STRUGGLE HERE TO SURVIVE.


I AM SORRY MY LOVE... .
I AM SORRY MY LOVE
FOR ALL THE MISUNDERSTANDING
AND FOR THE PAIN I MAY HAVE COUSED YOUR HEART.
I AM SORRY MY LOVE FOR ALL THE DOUBTS AND INSECURE FEELINGS
THAT SOMETIMES COMES ABOUT IN MY MIND- I NEVER MEANT TO
HURT YOU SO,. YOU KNOW YOU ARE MY TRUE LOVE.
I AM SORRY MY LOVE
FOR THOSE MISTAKES I MAY HAVE IMPLY
THAT COUSES YOU PAIN AND MADE YOU CRY.
THANK YOU THOUGH FOR HELPING ME NOT TO MAKE THEM AGAIN.
I AM TRUELY SORRY MY LOVE THAT I CAN’T BE THERE AT THIS TIME!
AND THAT T CAN’T HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS' I WANT TO COMFORT YOU
SWEETHEART AND CARESS YOU WITH MY LOVE.
I HOPE THAT THIS FEW WORDS WILL HELP YOU IN SOME KIND
OF WAYS. I SINCERELY APOLOGISE AND KNOW I LOVE YOU FOR
WHOM YOU ARE TO ME, TODAY THAT I REALISED.

WELCOME TO MY LIFE
WELCOME TO MY LIFE
THE ONLY ONE I GOT.
COME IN, COME IN
DON’T BE AFRAID.
O,PLEASE DON'T STAND BY THE DOOR
LIKE OTHERS HAVE DONE AND TURNED
AROND BEFORE.
TAKE ONE STEP INTO MY WORLD
BE TOUCHED AND LEARN OF A LOVE YOU NEVER KNOWN.

I CAN SPEAK YOUR LANGUAGE
TOO, THE TONGE I SPEAK IS WELL. - . . '_.....
UNDERSTOOD NO INTERPRETER NEEDED
I AM READY' TO ACEPT WHOM YOU ARE,
READY TO LET LOSE.
ONCE YOU COME TN
YOU CAN’T GET OUT!
I AM NOT BOASTING ABOUT WHAT I AM
ABOUT, T AM A GENTLE HUMAN BEING
WHOM STRIDE WITH SWEET DEMINOR
T SPEAK AS A LOVER.

ALL HAVE SAID THE SAME THING
ABOUT LOVE ABOUT PAIN AND THE DEEP
SORROW THAT I BEAR FROM DAY TO DAY
INTO TOMORROW.

WELCOME TO MY LIFE
LETS BE BOUND BY THE PLENTY OF LOVE,
LOVE NEVER KNOWN BEFORE.

THIS CHAMBER OF SILENCE AND DARKNESS...

THIS CHAMBER OF SILENCE AND DARKNESS
WAS NEVER MY WISH TO BE IN IT AS I CROSSED THE OCEAN.

THIS CHAMBER OF SILENCE AND DARKNESS
IT IS LIKE A GRAVE BEEN IN IT SINCE I LEFT MY MOTHER SIDE,
IN SILENCE THEY DISHONORED ME AND HIDING ME AWAY
FROM THE WORLD I KNEW!!
THIS CHAMBER OF SILENCE AND DARKNESS
MAKES YOU FEEL AS IF DEATH FORGOTTEN
AS THEY HAVE PUT ME TO SHAME.

THIS CHAMBER OF SILENCE AND DARKNESS
UNSAFE SO DARK AND NARROW DEEP AS A TRANCH HOLE WOULD
I BE ABLE TO SEE TOMORROW.

THIS CHAMBER OF SILENCE AND DARKNESS
ONLY GOD, AND I KNOW THE TRUTH HOW THEY ROBBED ME OF MY
INNOCENCE, MY YOUTH.
THERE IS NO SECRET I HAVE TOLD IT ALL I KNEW EVEN LIES
WITH REASONS TRYING TO PROTECT OTHERS, I WAS BURRIED.

THIS CHAMFER OF SILENCE AND DARKNESS
WHERE THE POWERFUL AND IN CONTROL THE LAW THEY HAVE
BREAKENED THEIR VOW TO BRING JUSTICE THAT MUCH I KNOW.

YES, MY HEART SPEAK THE TRUTH NOW AS I ONCE DID!
I NEVER KILL ANYONE AND IT NEVER BEEN IN MY NATURE
I NEVER WILL IT IS NOT MY SKILL.

TILL THE DAY WHEN I HOLD THAT KEYS TN MY HANDS
THIS CHAMBER OF SILENCE AND DARKNESS AND THIS PAIN
I WILL NEVER FORGET.



LONELY TUMB IN THE GRAVE YARD...
LONELY IS THE TUMB I FIND MYSELF LAYING IN THE GRAVE
YARD THAT IS SO OLD THAT WITHIN THE GRASS DESAPEAR.

LONELY TUMB AS I HAVE LIVED IN SINCE THE AGE OF 17
SOMBER AND STEAL AGINST MY WILL. IN DESPERATION TO ROSE
ABOVE WITH NO HELP AS I CRY, WITH TOTAL DARKNESS I TRY T0 FIND
MY WAY, NOT EVEN A GLIM OF LIGHT IS THERE.

LONELY AND ALONE FROM THE WORLD I ONCE KNEW, THE STARS, THE MOON, THE SUN TAKEN AWAY TOO SOON. I AM JUST A BULK OF HUMAN WASTED
BONE AND FLESH IN THE DARK.

LONELY AND DIGGING BENEATH UNDER THE GRAVE BURRIED SO DEEP
I TRY TO SET A SPARK I MAY HAVE MELTED WITH LABOR INTO THIS
MAJESTIC EARTH. THE HEAT SO HOT THAT I FELT AS IF WOULD MELT AS WELL.

IN THIS LONELINESS I TRY TO FIND MY WAY BACK AGAIN TO THAT VERY TUMB THAT I HAVE BEEN LAVED FOR ALWAYS AND THE
EDGE OF THE WALLS SO HARD TO PENETRATE TONS OF CEMENT
ON TOP OF ME AS THEY ONCE HAVE LAYED.

LONELY I FIND MYSELF SCARED AND AGED I KEEP TRYING
IN SILENCE FACH TRYING HOURS SCRACHTNG THF WALLS
MAKING SOUND , I AM ALIVE HERE I AM SEEKING FREEDOM CAN YOU
HEAR ME THERE THERE ARE YOU THERE!
I AM JUST A MORTAL BEING I BEEN WRONGFULLY CONVICTED AND
LAYED HERE. THIS MUST BE BUT A TEST MY BODY IS NUMB
I MUST CONFESS! I LONG TO SEE THE DAY LIGHT SEE THE SUN,
AND THE MOON, AND THE STARS AND EVERYONE. I SPEAK TO YOU
FROM THE NORTH TO THE SOUTH AND FROM THE EAST TO THE WEST
MAY THIS LONELY TOMB DECOMPRESS.

THIS PLACE...
THIS PLACE
LOCK-UP IN A CELL 24 HOURS A DAY
WITHOUT A HUMAN TOUCH, OH THAT HURT SO MUCH!
THIS PLACE, IT MAKES YOU FEEL COLD TILL YOUR BONES ACHES.
MADE OF CEMENT THE WALLS AND STEEL DOOR, ALL THE HOURS,
PRISONERS FEEL FULL OF HATE AND LOST SO MUCH VIOLENCE
WITHOUT A COUSE, AND TOO, THEY ARE LOSING THEIR TOUCH
OH TO WITNESS THIS HURT SO MUCH.

THIS PLACE, IT OVER LAPS MOST UNDERSTANDING AND THE WAVES
OE DISPAIR IN DEPRESSION AND ALL THE MENTAL STRESS MAKES
ALL HUMAN SOUL SO DEPRESS.
WHAT NIGHTMARE IS THIS? OH HIGHER SPIRIT TAKE ME AWAY FROM HERE
AWAKEN ME!!

THIS PLACE
THE CRYS FOR HELP BY MANY THE ONE THAT COULDN’T HARDLY STAND OR SUSTAIN THIS ANGUISHES AND PAIN. THE UNKIND ONES MAKE FUN WITH CURSES AND HATE AND ALL THIS IS SO UNFAIR. MANY OF US CRY SO VERY LOUD, WHAT AM I DOING IN HERE NOW, IN THIS GRAVE TODAY.

THIS PLACE
FOR ONE HOUR THEY PUT YOU IN A CAGE, AND THE SCREAM CAN BE
HEARD AFTER THEY SHUT THAT STEEL DOORS. BLACKS AND WHITES
HATE EACH OTHERS FOR FEAR I GUESS AS THEYB DON’T KNOW
ANY BETTER.
ONE CAN’T LOOK OUTSIDE THE MAN HAVE TINTED THE SMALL
WINDOWS, KEEP ONE AWAY FROM IT ALL THE LIGHT THE SUN.
AND THEY TRY TO PUNISH YOU TO THE STREAM TILL YOU GO INSANE.

SHE CAME LIKE THE WIND.

SHE CAME LIKE THE WIND
AND THAN SHE WAS GONE!

SHE WAS SICK AND WEAK
ALL THE TIMES'
I KNEW MY LOVE WASN'T STRONG
ENOUGH TO SUSTAIN HER.

I DID MY BEST THAT IS ALL
TO LOVE HER AND CARE FOR HER
BUT THAN SHE WAS GONE'

LIFE IS SHORT AND JUST ONE
AND ONE HAVE TO LIVE IT IN
PAIN JUST ONE SECOND AT THE TIME.

WE ALL HUMAN BEINGS
MUST GO ON FOR WE ARE JUST HUMANS.
AND AS HUMAN IN EVERYONES LIFE
PAIN HAVE JUST BEGUN.

SO BE KIND AND BE FAIR
FOR THEY COME TO OUR LIVES
FOR A WHILE AND THAN THEY DESAPEAR
LIKE THE AIR!!!


SCAPED....
FEW WILL SUCCEED
TO SCAPE AWAY FROM HERE.

I HAVE SCAPED MANY TIMES
IN THE STEAL OF THE NIGHT!

TN THIS HELL I AM LIVING IN
FEW WILL SUCCEED
YOU MAY SCAPE TOO , THROUGH THIS DANGEROUS
PASSAGE, BUT I WARN YOU FEW WILL SUCCEED.

WITH THE STRENGTH WITHIN MY SOUL,
I LAY EACH NIGHT IN BED AS T ENTER ANOTHER
WORLD WITH A STRONG BODY STRONG MIND.
INTO A HELL I ENTER MANY TIMES!!

I HAVE SCAPED ONCE AGIN
ENTERING THE UNKNOWN AND DISCOVER
MYSELF EVEN AS A CHILD
AN ACCOMPLISHMENT THAT ONCE WERE LOST.
IN A DREAM THERE I AM VENTURING IN MY
SPARED HOURS LIKE A GHOST.

HERE I HAVE SCAPED I FEEL FREE EVEN IN THE
DANGEROUS PASSAGE THAT FEW WILL SUCCEED.


JOURNEY BRAVELY INTO LIFE...
MY JOURNEY IN THIS LIFE HAVE TAKEN COURAGE AND BRAVERY.
MAY THE GREAT SPIRIT BE WITH ME EACH STEPS I TAKE AND
SUPPLY THAT COURAGE I ALWAYS NEED TO KEEP MYSELF STRONG
UNTILL THEY UNLOCK THIS DOORS.
A PRISON CELL IS WHERE I FIND MYSELF, THE CRUEL DESTINY
HAVE BUILDED IT FOR ME AS IT FAIL TO KEEP ME FREE ALL
MY LIFE ALL THIS YEARS.
IN THIS LONG LIFE STRUGGLES THAT I AM IN
MAY I CONTINUE TO LEARN TO BE HUMBLE AND RESPECT MYSELF
AND ACCEPP THE TRUTH WITH HUMILITY AS THIS IS MY REALITY.
TN THIS JOURNEY OF PRISON LIFE IT IS HARD T0 TRUST ANYONE
THERE IS NO ONE HERE TO TRUST, BUT A FEW! I WILL
LEARN THF WISDOM THAT COMES FROM EVERY MISTAKES AND
MAY I DISCOVER IT IN A WILD FLOWER IN EACH TRYING HOURS
IN THE VOICE OF AN ELDER. I WILL LISTEN AND WILL HEAR IT
IN EVERY SOUND IN ALL THINGS AS I AM LOCKED IN THIS CELL.
FREEDOM I HAVE SEEK FROM THE FIRST DAY TN PRISON
FREEDOM SHOULD COME MY WAY.

A REAL FRIEND
A FRIEND IS ONE OF THE NICEST THINGS YOU CAN HAVE
ESPECIALLY IN THIS PRISON AND ONE OF THE BEST THINGS YOU CAN BE.
A FRIEND IS A LIVING TREASURE AND HAVING YOU AS MY LOYAL
TRUSTED FRIEND IS A VERY VALUEABLE GIFT IN MY LIFE.

A FRIEND IS THE ONE TWO WILL BE ALWAYS BESIDE YOU!
THROUGH EVERY LOUGHTER AND THROUGH EACH TEARS. A FRIEND
IS THE ONE YOU CAN ALWAYS RELIED ON, THAT SOMEONE YOU CAN
ALWAYS OPEN UP TO: THAT ONE HUMAN BEING WHO IS WONDERFUL
AND BELIEVES IN YOU AND NEVER CROSSES YOU, AND WHOM BELIEVES
IN YOU IN WAYS NO ONE ELSE SEEM TO.

A FRIEND IS A UNIQUE GIFT.
A FRTFND CHEERS YOU UP WITH A SMILE?
A FRIEND IS THE ONE WHO IS CONSERN FOR YOUR WELL BEING AND
WATCHES YOUR BACK FROM THE BACK STUBBERS. AND NO MATTER HOW
CLOSE OR HOW FAR YOU ALWAYS WORRY ABOUT YOUR FRIEND.

A FRIEND IS THE ONE WHO WILL ALWAYS CARE AND WILL BE THERE FOR YOU.
A FRIEND IS FOR EVER KEEPED IN THE HEART.

A FRIEND TS THE ONE WHO IS A WAYS OPEN.
A FRIEND IS THE ONE WHO YOU CAN GIVE YOUR WORD AS A BOND
AND NEVER BREAK IT!

WE ARE FRIENDS AND AFTER ALL THE STRUGGLES WE ARE
IN AND HAVE BEEN THOGUH THIS LENGHTY TIME IN THIS JOURNEY
OF LIFE. WE MUST NOT GIVE IN TILL THEY OPEN THIS STEEL DOORS.
MAY BE TOMORROW!!


"WHAT AM I"
WHAT AM I?
I AM A VICTIM OF INJUSTICE
A HUMAN BEING DISPOSSED INTO THE WHEEL OF FATE
ACCUSED AND CHANGED TO LIFE AND FIVE THEY
HAVE WASTED MY LIFE AWAY. AND I HAVE NEVER
COMMITED MO CRIMES.
WHAT AM I?

the dreams I had are gone i thought once were mine separated by fate away from the ones i loved the most i was stripped into a cage like a ghost.
what am i/

WHAT AM T?
LIKE A CHILD I CRY EVERY DAY AND ALL THOSE TEARS
THAT HAS FALLEN FROM MY EYES FROM THE PAIN I HAVE SUSTAIN"
OF ALL THE YEARS OE MY LIFE THAT THEY HAVE WASTED SEEM
IN VAIN. DEEPLY INSIDE THE PAINFUL PASSION ALMOST MADE ME
BLIND AND IN AGONY I TRY TO MAKE SURE THAT THE TEARS DIDN’T
BURN OUT AND EACH DAY STRIVING TO SURVIVE, BUT LIKE A
GHOST SPOSSED THE FEELINGS EVER MORE REAL IN THE LONELINESS
FROM THE SEPARATION THE ECHOS WITHIN MY CRYS CAN’T BE HIDDEN,
WHAT AM I*?

What AM T?
I AM BEEN PASSED FROM HAND T0 HANDS, CELL BY CELLS,
I DARE TO SPEAK OF MY INNOCENCE TO ANYONE WHOM MAY
CARE AND WHOM MAY SPEAK IN MY BEHALF EVEN TO THE
PRISON STUFFS. BUT THE EMPTINESS STILL REMAIN AND THE AGONY OF THE PAIN BY BEEN AWAY FROM MY FAMILY MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I WANT TO RUN BUT WHERE I AM LOCK IN A CELL
WHAT AM I?

WHAT AM I
I STAND HERE BRAVING THE UNKNOWN WONDERING AS EACH
HOURS PASSES ME BY WAITING FOR MY CHANCE TO COME BY WHILE
THE WHEEL OF FATE KEEPS MY LIFE FROM THAT FREEDOM I
SEEK EACH DAY!
WHAT AM T?


PAINFUL FEELINGS....
MY HEAD HURTS AND SO IS MY HEART
MY BONES ACHES AS THEY HAVE BROKEN
THROUGH MY LIFE TIME.

I AM CONSTANTLY ON THE RUN TRYING TO AVOID THIS
AGONY THAT WANTS TO DEFEAT ME. EVEN IN MY DREAMS
I AM BEEN ATTACKED, THEY COME AFTER ME WITH CHAINS AND AXES.

THE PAIN RUNS DEEPLY IN MY SOUL I TRYED MANY THINGS
TO EASY THE HURT EVEN POWERFUL PILLS CAN"T HELP ME.
I FEEL AS IF WILL GO CRAZY AND THAT MY BRAIN MAY GO INSANE.
IT IS HARD TO UNDERSTAND I FEEL AS IF T WILL DIE
FROM THE PAIN AS THEY PULTIFLY AS MY HEAD
FEELS TOO, AS IT WILL EXPLODE TONIGHT.

SOMETIME THE PAIN IS TO MUCH AND FIND MYSELF IN A POOL
OF TEARS AND MY BODY SHAKEN WITH FEAR.
PAINFULLY THROUGH THE HOURS I TRY TO FIND MYSELF
BUT THE POUNDING OF THE PAIN DON'!T LET ME STAND
I CAN’T EAT OR SLEEP AS WELL.
I FEEL THE DEEP PAIN IN MY SPINAL CORE AND WONDER IF
THIS WILL GO ON FOR EVER MORE!
WOULD THERE EVER BE A CURE, THAT I AM NOT TOO SURE.

FAIN SUCH COMPANY, I HAVE NEVER BEEN THE SAME
MY SELF ONE MOMENT I TRY TO CONTAIN.

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